Saturday, October 12, 2013

Be Self-controlled

Titus 2:5
"to be self-controlled"

Defined according to Merriam-Webster: "restraint exercised over one's own impulses, emotions, or                                                      desires"

Talk about a loaded definition! 
While reading a book for the Review Crew, I came across a thought from an author. She says that you can't control what others say about you, but how you respond to what they say. I spent some time with that thought. The Lord really grew that in me. It's not just other people, but all my circumstances.  I have a choice to make every moment of every day. I can chose to say what's on my mind and have negative attitudes or I can chose to keep my mouth closed! 

I am a very dramatic person by nature. I love acting and therefore have been trained to be animated. Couple that with my love of writing and you have a very animated person with the vocabulary to describe everything! I am a very excitable person. It translates in my writing as exclamation points! Yes, I really do talk with that much excitement most of the time.  On the flip side of things, I can get upset just as easily, especially if it is something that I am passionate about!

1 Timothy 1:7 in the Amplified Bible says "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of a calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control."

I know this is talking about fear, but I think it also translates into other areas of our lives. 
I can use a calm, well-balanced mind, discipline and self-control in so many other circumstances in my every day life! 

"control over one's impulses, emotions, or desires"

I am not a morning person! I am a night owl. I enjoy being up late after everyone else is in bed. I write for this blog during those very quiet evening hours. However, my children are very early risers! My own desire is to stay in my warm and comfortable bed until at least 8am, then I would like to get up slowly, drink a HOT cup of coffee while waking up.  That is NOT how my mornings go in this house. I am awake most mornings by 6am. I get breakfast for the children, change the 2 littles, and lunch ready for Thomas to take to work.  My first cup or 2 of coffee are lukewarm at best. It is not until 930 ish, when the children go outside to play that I get a hot cup of coffee while doing my quiet time. 
The Lord has to remind me far too often of the many years that I cried out for children on these mornings. I am learning self-control. I am learning to have control over my desires and also over my attitude during these early mornings when 3 children and my husband are demanding my attention.  I am learning to find the joy in these times with my family. That does not mean that I have mastered this yet. There are still mornings that I do not get up until it is time for Thomas to leave for work and I have to take care of the children. There are times that I do get up and I am so grumpy that my family wishes I had just stayed in bed. On those days all I can say is thank God for grace! 

This week I am being challenged to really practice self-control. I pray that you will join me! 

What are some of the areas that you struggle with self-control? 

Father God,
 I pray that you give each one of us the strength to maintain control over our impulses, desires and emotions. Help us to look to You for guidance. Please, give us strength in those moments that we struggle. Thank You for Your grace! 

In a Nut Shell...

I have been spending a lot of time thinking lately. I know that under the wrong circumstances that can be a very negative thing, but I believe that it can be very healthy as well.

The new place is almost blissful! I love the amount of space. I love that the children have a backyard to play in. I am enjoying the windows open and decorating for fall! I find myself spending major amounts of my days being truly thankful and praising God for this amazing blessing that He has given my family!

School is back in full swing. Popper is doing wonderful. His reading is coming along wonderfully. We are both struggling in his math, but learning together, which is my favorite part of teaching him! He has taken a season off from soccer and will return in the spring.

We are currently searching for a new church home.  There is some history and hurt behind this that I am not at liberty to share. I just know that God has done some major healing in my heart over the last 2 years and is still currently working on my husband's heart. I know that there is a home out there for us. We are trusting him to show us the way.

This weekend I got to spend some special time with my 2 youngest while Popper was with his Nana. I love that extra special attention that I got to give them. I am shocked and slightly embarrassed to say that I miss out on so much of their personalities sometimes because I am busy with Popper. I know that there are parents out there that don't understand this, but when you have a child with any kind of disorder, you tend to exhaust a lot of your energy on that child.  I am learning how to balance this just like other areas of my life.

I have started whole eating for my family again. Thomas says that he feels like he has a ton more energy. (This is a very good thing) I am leaning on my Father for this one. My heart aches at the thought of losing my best friend. I want him around for a very long time. He is such an amazing father and dad! My soul cries out almost constantly for healing for him.

Life keeps moving! Everyday I am grateful for another day to spend with my family, another day to praise my Savior, another day to be a mom, wife, friend.

I am glad to be back! Writing has become such a part of me and I have truly missed it!

Monday, October 7, 2013

Checking In!

 I miss writing so badly right now. Things are very busy in my world. 
We have officially moved. I am in the last stages of unpacking. In fact, Monday was the first day that Mr Popper has done school in 2 weeks! 
On top of that, Thomas has consulted our family doctor. She is putting him on medication along with changes in diet and exercise because his numbers were so astronomical! He starts those this week as well.

I am planning on coming back to writing more frequently next week. That will include picking back up on the Tuesday Tidbits! I can't wait to share with you all the things that the Lord is doing even in the midst of this storm of life. 

God bless you all!